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Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Wesley Crusher's Dark Night of the Soul



I just watched, for the umpteenth time, Star Trek Next Generation's "Journey's End." Despite some rather sappy, idealized attempts to depict Native American culture, it's a good episode. One of the things that strikes me, not for the first time, is its depiction of Wesley Crusher's spiritual growing pains. From the Wiki:

Meanwhile, Wesley has returned from Starfleet Academy for a vacation. He's out-of-character though, snappish and depressed and he appears even slightly ill, which really worries Dr. Crusher. He is rude to La Forge in the engine room. Dr. Crusher tries to talk to her son, but initially gets nowhere.

On the planet, Wesley comes in contact with Lakanta, an Indian holy man of sorts. He guides Wesley on a journey of self-discovery, in which he talks to his long-dead father, who tells Wesley that he is destined to go down a path different from his own.

It has me contemplating the stress associated with spiritual growth; probably because I was trying to explain this very issue to a client earlier today. One of the more painful lessons I've learned is that spiritual growth is not comfortable. This is something lightworkers have had to deal with for some years now, although the worst of what I call "lightworker syndrome" seems to be abating. Many "ascension symptom" lists have been presented by psychics and channelers over the years. For my money, the best and most comprehensive is Karen Bishop's, a version of which appears on the first page of her new site. Here are a handful of her observations:

* Have you felt in recent years and months, that you were stretching far beyond what you had the capacity to endure?

* Have you had many emotional ups and downs, strange physical aches and pains, many losses in the form of friends, jobs, family, finances, and much of anything else?

. . .

* Have you had anxiety, panic, or what feels like depression?

* Do you at times have strange and disturbing nightmares that are not normal for you?

. . .

* Are your emotions out of control from time to time (sudden weeping and sadness, or are you just plain over-emotional)? Do you ever feel lost and alone?

* Do you at times feel that there is nowhere left to go that remotely fits you anymore?

These emotional and physical disruptions are certainly not confined to those of us experiencing the lightworker phenomenon that started in the late nineties/early aughts. Similar experiences and worse have been recorded for millenia among spiritual seekers. From the "Dark Night of the Soul" of St. John of the Cross to the "divine madness" of Greek philosophers, it has long been known that spiritual breakthrough is not painless. Much of this has been well documented by Stan Grof in his books Spiritual Emergency and The Stormy Search for Self. It can involve the brutal ripping apart of the ego, to make way for the workings of spirit. This can make the spiritual seeker very, very cranky.

This is where I have been forced to part ways with the "love and light" yumminess of so much of the "new age" movement and why I shun The Secret. These movements present a very unrealistic presentation of spiritual growth. Worse, there is a lot of shaming of "negative" emotions and expressions, that can cause many spiritual seekers to go into denial and avoidance patterns. It can force us to be completely inauthentic.

I've always considered Star Trek: The Next Generation to be representative of the "new age" zeitgeist of the 80s and 90s. Though the mauve and seafoam green of the sets seems dated now, the show is like a little time capsule of what was for me a very heady time. But I was struck anew at how much I could relate to Wesley Crusher's agitation in this episode. A spiritual calling can make us really bitchy... Well, it can make me really bitchy. And while we sometimes need to apologize for inappropriate outbursts and behavior, it does not do for us to be told that those outbursts are somehow counter-spiritual. Quite the contrary. As with young Wesley, the irritability and agitation that can make us really unpleasant to be around can be indicative of a deeper spiritual calling and transformation process, and sometimes it just has to run its course.


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Sunday, February 14, 2010

The Year of the Heart




"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." ~ C.S. Lewis



This year Valentine's Day coincides with the Chinese New Year. At our house, we'll be celebrating both; exchanging valentines over homemade Chinese food. It's fitting I think, because I decided a while back that I am calling 2010 "the year of the heart." This is not because of anything astrological. In Chinese astrology it's a tiger year, which is something different, entirely. So why am I calling this the year of the heart? Because of the massive changes I'm seeing in our heart chakras. And because it is crucial now that we begin to operate from our hearts.

Over the past month or so, I've seen these shifts in client after client. There are massive releases of energy from the heart chakra, and a feeling of expansion. In some cases those clients have been deliberately doing heart chakra work, because they have been moved to do so. In other cases, it's entirely unconscious on their parts. When I notice that many parallel experiences, I have to acknowledge the possibility that there is a larger, more general, transformation at work.

I've also noticed a number of psychics, channelers, and lightworkers talking about this pronounced shift in heart energy. Karen Bishop has reflected in some of her updates, including the most recent one, that part of the greater purpose of the horrific earthquake in Haiti was to open our hearts. Our heart chakras are opening, whether we want them to or not.

Some of the manifestations of this are uncomfortable. When our chakras open suddenly or dramatically, there is always fallout. Even when the initial experience in meditation or yoga, or some other discipline, is warm, tingly, and yummy, in the days, weeks, even months, that follow, we clear residual blockages and "guck." It can be physically painful. When the heart chakra opens like this, we can experience shortness of breath, chest pains, racing heartbeat, weepiness, and sudden anger, among other symptoms. (None of this is meant as a substitute for a medical diagnosis. Seek medical attention, if you think necessary... blah, blah, blah... you know the drill.) I should note that I am also, over the last couple of weeks, seeing a similar dramatic expansion in the third eye, which can result in headaches, dizziness, light sensitivity, sinus congestion/inflammation, ear pressure, ringing in the ears, and a general sense of overwhelm.



"And what happened then? Well, in Whoville they say that the Grinch's small heart grew three sizes that day. And then - the true meaning of Christmas came through, and the Grinch found the strength of ten Grinches, plus two!" ~ from How the Grinch Stole Christmas!



So why do I say these shifts in the energy of our hearts is crucial, at this time? This is where it gets a bit more complicated. However you view this planetary shift -- that many believe will be an actual change in the dimensional frequency -- it is imperative that we begin to create our reality from our hearts; not from our heads. Yes, I know that sounds like a cliche, but I'm actually speaking quite literally. We tend to think of that emotional "heart energy" very figuratively. There is a good bit of empirical data that says otherwise; that our physical heart is actually a sensing, thinking organ; not simply a blood pump. The HeartMath Institute has been doing groundbreaking, clinical research on the heart, for many years. I first learned about HeartMath some years ago when I was studying the Flower of Life with Drunvalo Melchizedek. Drunvalo goes into some detail on operating from the heart in this excellent interview, which I posted a while back. In it:

Drunvalo goes into great depth about the importance of being in our hearts. By way of example he explains the deeper problem of The Secret. As I have said many times, the determination to be "positive" does not allow for wholeness, or oneness consciousness. Drunvalo explains it as being a problem of creating with the head (our thoughts) rather than our hearts. Whereas, our hearts are in wholeness, our brains are polarized. They are binary instruments, and he says can only create dualism... By focusing on our heart consciousness, Drunvalo explains that we can transcend duality and the seesaw effect of polarized creation, and this is where we will need to be to transition into the new reality, on the other side of this great shift. 

I discovered the Red Ice Radio interview, posted below, with Howard Martin of the HeartMath Institute, on YouTube a while ago. He gives a very grounded, lucid explanation of where their research has taken them, the tools they've developed for operating from heart consciousness, and how that relates to the planetary shift. I was particularly struck by his explanation of why the coming shift is completely inconceivable, from our current level of awareness.

I get asked in media interviews to describe, well, what is this new dimension gonna be like. And my answer to that is, to be honest, I don't know. And the reason I don't know is because it's completely new. And our tendency when we talk about new is we try to see new from where we are today. In other words, we try to put new clothes on what we already see.  And what we're moving into now is something we haven't ever seen before. It would be like someone coming up to a person, let's say, in the 1800s who's sitting on a horse and buggy and saying to them, there's gonna be new transportation in the future. And if the person on the horse and buggy was trying to figure that out, they probably would be seeing a better horse and a better buggy. But they wouldn't be seeing the airline industry, because they couldn't. And that's the exciting position we're in today. It's gonna be so different and so new that we really can't see it yet.

This, in part, is why we must begin operating from our heart center. Our brains simply cannot conceive of it. When we are brain centered, we need to understand everything. Things have to make logical sense. We need what Virginia Sandlin calls "mind cookies." Our hearts are wiser than that. It's time to embrace the possibility of much brighter future, without judgment, and with very open hearts.




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Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Energy Allergies


Very interesting post on Lightworkers.com regarding "energy allergies."

As we raise our vibration we often can experience what is called an energy allergy. This happens as a natural growth process as we evolve, (especially for us empaths:-) But I have noticed many people even those who aren't light workers going through these shifts. These energy allergies can manifest in many ways and for many reasons. Most often the result is fatique. Sleepiness, headaches,anxiety, allergy symptoms, depression, and the list goes on. The often occur as a result after an event or realization that raises our consciencness. These realizations can be both postive or negative. We have all had it happen after a negative event when we find ourselves retreating to heal. After a positive event it happens as a result or being out of sync between our spirit and our soroundings. Often times they can be a result or a block in creative energies because of the limiting beleifs we are learing to let go of. When we raise our spiritual vibration the spirit longs to express itself in these new understandings. When we don't allow this energy to flow it results in the energy becoming stuck within us and these conditions result. It is extremely normal as we all take 3 steps forward then 2 back, so nothing to worry about or feel responsible for.

This one jumped out at me, because I am having a horrible allergy attack... for several days running, now. I have had these before, following major shifts. My sense of this has been that as we move to the next vibrational level, we can go out of sync with our environment. The result is a discomfort in our living (or work) space. For myself, I've always found that after I move up a vibrational level -- or a few of them at once, in some cases -- there can be a lag before my living space catches up to meet my new vibrational level. Until things catch up, we're out of sync. There a number of things you can do to reclaim your space. Cleaning is one. Dusting and vacuuming are fairly obvious, because even a very low level of dust can really set off allergies, when you're also in an "energy allergy" response. I've been dusting like mad, even though there is very little dust; much less than would normally bother me at all.

I've also found it helpful to use sage and other energy cleansing and renewing incenses; lavender, sweetgrass, cedar, frankincense, copal, sandalwood... That's if my sinuses can withstand the smoke. Right now, they can't. In that event, misting with water, or rosewater, is another good option. The goal is to clear out residual energy patterns that are longer appropriate to where you are. They will shift on their own, eventually. This just helps to speed things along.

I have, in some cases, had to consciously direct the energy. I remember one time in particular, some years ago. I was meditating and my guides drew my attention to my car. I was shown that while my apartment was back in sync, I had ignored the car, which I still had to be able to safely drive. So, I focused my attention on the car, and observed a spiral of light swirling up through it, for several moments, until it looked, energetically, bright and shiny.

The shifts since this summer have been fast, furious, and incredibly abrupt, in some cases. I keep finding myself reeling. This most recent shift has left me very out of sync. In addition to the allergies, I'm extremely sensitive to sounds and smells. As I have so many times throughout this ascension process, I feel like I have no skin; no defenses against even the most innocuous disruptions.

I know I'm not alone, on this one. I've talked to several clients who are having the allergy responses. So is my husband. December is not generally allergy season, so it's noteworthy. If you're having this problem, I hope these suggestions help; or feel free to suggest some of your own tips and tricks for moving through these shifts.


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Friday, July 17, 2009

Drunvalo on the Coming Changes



Hat tip to gentle_breeze for alerting me to recent of video of Drunvalo Melchizedek on the coming earth changes. I've already written a great deal about my experiences with Dru and the Flower of Life curriculum. (Note: The loading time on my soapblox blog may be slow right now. I don't know what's going on, but it's beyond my control.) I should add that I've only recently begun to comprehend the magnitude of the work itself, and that I was drawn to that training for very important reasons. Drunvalo's stuff can sound very out there, as he himself acknowledges in this lecture, but I can tell you from personal experience that doing the work is deeply transformative.

This lecture is probably the most optimistic thing I've ever heard from Drunvalo. Those familiar with Karen Bishop should notice the correlation in vision immediately. It also validates some of the things I started to see last fall. As I wrote previously, in my diaries on the Time Monks predictions, I had been getting glimmers of something rather spectacular coming, but I had not been given permission to write about it. I'm also still having trouble wrapping my mind around it. The information started coming early last September, shortly before the financial meltdown was revealed. I began receiving messages from my most trusted guide, when I was deep in disgust over a series of injustices -- many financial -- that I was observing and experiencing. My guide appeared and said, "It's over." This message came through more than once in the ensuing days, along with further information about how we would be entering a time of miracles and magic; things beyond our wildest imagination.

You will also find that Drunvalo talks a lot about fundamental unity, in this lecture. I expect I will be writing a good deal more about that subject in the coming weeks. It's been coming up a lot; to an extent that indicates to me that we've made a collective leap on that subject. I'm hearing about the oneness of all things from some very surprising sources these days, to the extent that it's almost jarring. As a long time student of mystical thought, I can no longer view the world in any other way, but I also understand what a threat to the ego a true understanding of oneness is. In this lecture Dru says that we will be completely losing polarity and returning to experiential oneness, as these changes progress.

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Monday, June 15, 2009

Cracks in the Ice

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There was a new update from Karen Bishop last evening. This one particularly resonated for me, as did the book excerpt she sent out in her email.

DISCONNECTED

HAVE YOU EVER FELT somehow left out? As if you were perhaps on an island by yourself? Or maybe that things were moving along energetically, and then they suddenly stopped? Have you ever tried to move forward, and been stopped abruptly by some unseen force that simply will not let a thing manifest for you? During this time, have you felt very unsupported?

There comes a time with the ascension process when we are basically disconnected. The energy that brings in the higher vibrations and this energy that we usually connect to in order to create and move forward, feels simply absent. There are several reasons for this. Basically, it is absent. And when these phases occur, they can be quite uncomfortable as they make us feel powerless. And powerlessness is one of the most lower vibrational states we can be in.

We can feel disconnected when the energies are re-adjusting. This is a regular pattern with the ascension process. We go through a period of great movement, and then... nothing but stop sign energy. This period of disconnection occurs because much is being re-aligned and readied for the next stage of movement. At higher levels and at the lower physical levels as well, things are being moved into place for our arrival. It is as if a bed is being made for us to lie in.

In the runes, this current energy would be Isa, or ice. This is the rune Ralph Blum defines as "Standstill." I always hated drawing this rune, in a reading. Patience isn't a natural virtue for me... but I'm learning. From Blum's Rune Cards.

Positive accomplishment is unlikely now. There is a freeze on useful activity; all your plans are on hold. You may be experiencing an unaccustomed drain on your energy and wonder why: a chill wind is reaching you over the ice floes of old outmoded habits. Holding on can result in shallowness of feeling, a sense of being out of touch with life. Seek to discover what you are holding on to that perpetuates this condition, and let it go. Shed, release, cleanse away the old. Doing so will bring on the thaw.

Usually Isa requires a sacrifice of the personal. At such a time you cannot hope to rely on help or friendly support. There is, however, no reason for anxiety. Submit and be still, for what you are experiencing is not necessarily the result of your actions or even your habits, but rather arises from conditions about which you can do nothing. What has been full must be empty; what has increased must decrease. This is the way of Heaven and Earth. To surrender is to display courage and wisdom.

So, it's a difficult energy. Although, I'm finding as I move through this process of ascension, or whatever we choose to label this process, it's getting easier to absorb these phases. In fact the biggest problem I've been having is caring about any of it. I feel thoroughly unmotivated, which takes some of the discomfort out of the stuckness. For months now, I just can't seem to get truly worked up about anything, and it' s not for lack of stressors. And, I have no real urge to do anything. It's like with this blog. I see news items and I think, "Hey, that's kind of interesting. I should blog that... Eh, what're you gonna do. Yawn."

But, this endless winter of discontent may be starting to thaw. I saw some things in meditation towards the end of last week -- I'd describe them if I could -- that indicated to me that things are about to kick into high gear. And, it would appear, Karen Bishop concurs.

This past Thursday (June 11), as I prepared for bed, my star companion showed up with a message. I had just shown my property for sale that day, and assumed he would be pointing out some things that I needed to be aware of, or perhaps that would be helpful in regard to the day’s occurrences, as this was his usual pattern…always helpful is assisting me in any way possible. But this time, I was in for a surprise.

Instead, he stated emphatically that there would be a turn of events that would change everything for me, and it was just around the corner. What exactly did that mean? I had been seeing this same scenario for several weeks and even months for all of us, but never heard this directly from him. And when he tells me something, he is never wrong. He was telling me this himself now, because it was now finally time to go.

. . .

At this point in our journey, many of us have let go of much of everything (whether intentionally or not)…jobs, individuals, relationships, sources of income, future plans, and literally, pretty much everything. This is because we cannot go across the border with all our suitcases. We are starting very new. Remember? This us what we have wanted and have been complaining about not happening for quite some time.

Because there is nothing much left for many of us, we may be feeling very empty right about now. We may perhaps feel exhausted, tired, un-plugged from our Source or even from ourselves, and just feel like we are hanging out there in mid-air, floating from here to there with no sense of direction and not much to keep us going. Because we have let everything go, and are preparing to start very new with a very clean slate, we may indeed not even know what that “very new” will even look like!

Right now, all this movement just sounds exhausting. I hope the apathy and fatigue lift, along with the standstill energy.

I should add that another shoe, or two, may drop in terms of the global situation. There may be another lurch, in terms of the economy. I can't be more specific. Right now it's just a feeling of a kind of tension bubble rising in the collective unconscious. We shall see.

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Saturday, March 07, 2009

The Great Ennui Continues

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Karen Bishop posted this on Thursday. You'll note, I've only just now gotten 'round to posting any mention. That sums it up fairly well. Yawn. I don't care about anything.

Bit by bit, piece by piece, we are starting over. After enough souls residing in the lower dimensional old world, had been given enough time and opportunity to choose if they would stay behind or move on to their newer and higher vibrating reality of the next step for the whole, many of us then left for the next rung of our very new reality. When we left, we may have felt a great completion, a sense of loss of identity and purpose, and perhaps great feelings of no sense of place. We were done with a very important phase, and because this phase was completed by enough of the whole, we were most certainly done with a very important mission. This was a huge completion. Because we are very done, we are now readying to start over…to experience a grand rebirth, and some very new beginnings.

. . .

Moving into a higher vibrating reality creates common themes that are always present. Some include: A very low tolerance for lower vibrating energies and ways of being, great loneliness, memory loss, a strong feeling of no sense of place, a great dis-connect from much of everything, extreme fatigue and feelings of not wanting to do anything but rest, apathy, sleepiness, mood swings, great joy, peace, a deeper connection to Source and our souls, greater feelings of love, and a very strong awareness of what is around us.

Bishop's last couple of posts have been dead-on accurate for me. All I want to do is rest and I don't feel well rested or relaxed no matter what I do. I feel thoroughly exhausted. (Note to self: I keep meaning to burn to some benzoin, for psychic and emotional exhaustion, but I keep forgetting. Probably because I'm exhausted.) All I want to do is sleep, read, and watch movies. Most of today, you'll find me on the comfy couch with my daughter watching the Harry Potter marathon on ABC Family. The commercials will drive me bonkers, but, eh, what are ya gonna do. The remote is way over there.

Oh, here's a thing. Is anyone else having problems with electrical things: power fluctuations, batteries and other power sources becoming erratic, bulbs burning out like mad, electronics breaking or malfunctioning... I am. I'm also having some very strange energy surges in my body, and I don't think the two things are unrelated. Over the past couple of weeks, I keep fluctuating between being exhausted, but unable to sleep for more than a few hours at a time, and then days when I'm practically narcoleptic.

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Thursday, February 05, 2009

Well... This Might Explain a Few Things

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The newest Karen Bishop WINGS update is posted and, um... yeah. Actually, the selected text from the email alert nailed it down for me. It comes from The Ascension Companion.

APATHY

I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S wrong with me these days. I just don't seem to care about much of anything anymore." "I seem to have lost all interest in becoming involved with the things that I used to." "I don't care what happens." If you have had any of these thoughts or feelings lately, know that they are a regular part of the ascension process and have a perfect and distinct purpose.

At times, we may feel as though we are going along, "acting" our way through our daily lives. We are simply not present, as our lives do not have the meaning that they used to. We don't seem to be in alignment with what we had created in the past. And in addition, becoming exhausted through all the trials and tribulations that ascension can bring, can make one very apathetic. We are just too darned tired to become involved with or care about much of anything. "Let the chips fall where they may," becomes our general course of action (or in-action!). "I no longer have the desire to stay on top of things."

But apathy has a gold nugget within it. Being apathetic actually places us in a higher vibrating space. It supports our continual process of letting go of attachments. When we no longer care about much of anything, we then become unentwined with much. We are then left in a space of "no space, and this is the space of the higher realms. We are then much more in the moment. When we do not care about much, we are not filling our thoughts and emotions with things that are not really "real." And we are much more out of the way.

In the new WINGS posting, she goes on to explain the current phenomenon.

Our current themes? Manifesting what we may have always wanted, finding ourselves feeling as if we have no purpose, desire, or interest in anything, feeling completely alone with absolutely no connections, anger and resentment at the past, stuck in old relationships, being extremely busy wrapping up so we can move forward, setting things up for the new, or feelings of bliss, excitement and having the beginning experiences of new connections and an amazing new beginning of freedom and joy.

What an interesting hodge podge of manifestations, but they all make sense if we know what is transpiring with our evolutionary process.

When we complete important phases of our spiritual evolutionary journey, we go to a new space. Thus, when we are “done,” we find ourselves in a space of re-booting or feeling empty and apathetic about much. Nothing excites us anymore, we may feel useless, lethargic, empty, perhaps assuming we are depressed, and our joyous states of excitement and high energy may be completely gone. This state of being is an indicator that we have completed a very important phase within ourselves and with the planet. It is very common for ascension.

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Saturday, December 13, 2008

Earth Changes & Energy Shifts

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This will be quick. I'm off to bed, but I've been meaning to post something for a while about some of the energy shifts we're experiencing currently. By "we" I mean lightworkers and sensitives, whether or not we choose define ourselves that way.

I'm calling this time period "the rewiring," because that's what I keep getting. I experienced a massive energy crash the day after the election, when, by rights, I should have been in a great mood. Since then, I've noted that a number of my clients and friends are experiencing varying degrees of exhaustion, fatigue, and overwhelm. When I asked my guides what was going on for me, personally, they showed me that I was being "rewired." A lot of us are feeling kind of like marionettes who've just had all our strings cut.

A lot of us are also experiencing a range of sensations in the head, from headaches to dizziness. This, I've been told, is also part of this restructuring of energy pathways.

I do want to devote some attention to the dizziness, however. As I've explained previously, I tend to experience an uptick in tonal vibration and sometimes dizzy spells before major earth events. For the past two days I've been having the spins. So, just an oh-so-gentle reminder that we are still in the window of the earthquake predictions from the Time Monks. Their data showed a timeframe of December 10-12, but as they say, themselves, they tend to be off by a few days. There've been a couple in the 5-6 pt range, but so far, nothing that looks like their prediction. They could have been wrong, or we may have bypassed this, but I mention it, because... well... because I've been getting the spins for two days.

I'll put it this way... When the toning in my head gets really intense or I start to have other weird physical sensations -- Katrina made my joints go all wobbly for about a week beforehand -- it is generally connected to massive shifts in the collective consciousness. Often there is a physical manifestation, like a quake or other disaster. Other times we make the shift in awareness and manage to bypass the drama. I hope it's the latter. Time Monk George Ure is also hoping they were off on this one, but you might want to pay attention to animal behavior about now.

In general, take it easy. Eating and sleeping seems to be the order of the day. Take as much time as possible to self-nurture and enjoy simple comforts. And, drink lots of water.

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Monday, October 27, 2008

Random Thoughts on Karen Bishop

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So, this morning, I opened my email and saw that the latest energy alert from Karen Bishop is entitled "Your Last Energy Alert." I progressed immediately to the first stage of grief: Denial. No, she doesn't mean the "last" energy alert. It's just some clever play on words that will become clear when I actually read the thing. Nope. She's really signing off. What followed was not so much anger (second stage), as a desire to run around the room screaming like my head was on fire. I restrained the impulse, in deference to the emotional well-being of my cats. I admit it. I've really come to depend on these updates. They're a reality check in a surreal world.

I first became aware of Karen Bishop and her wonderful service through a client. She'd forwarded me an alert she had received from someone else. This was several years ago, and I only wish I'd discovered her site earlier. Like many lightworkers, I had been experiencing a number of the symptoms on her list, and feeling pitched and tossed on the waves of a rapidly shifting reality. What she wrote affirmed so many of my perceptions about the vicissitudes of the collective unconscious, and provided a context for the emotional and physical symptoms that had me on a roller-coaster.

I've lost track of how many clients I've directed to Bishop's site, since then. So many of them have been experiencing the symptoms and turbulence of the rapid, spiritual acceleration that characterizes this time; the anxiety and mood swings, the disturbed sleep patterns, the inexplicable weight gain, the loss of personal identity and sense of place, the sudden inability to be in crowds or other social situations that were once enjoyable... The list goes on. And, those who have been experiencing these things can write chapter and verse about how disruptive these changes have been. There is just something so calming about learning that this is part of a much larger, shared experience, and that it isn't because we're doing something "wrong." Because, let's face it, there is a lot of shaming of dark emotions and physical health challenges in the new age arena, and a lot of pressure to stay "positive." Having these very uncomfortable experiences validated as part of a natural unfolding has, I'm sure, brought welcome relief to many of Bishop's readers.

This alert is no exception. Bishop hits the nail on the head, once again.

Coughing spells, intestinal distress, heart palpitations, and insomnia are also signs of preparation for the new as we release more of the older and denser energies within us. One interesting symptom of ascension is the inability to spell things correctly or write an appropriate sentence. It can be common to superimpose letters as well. As one with a history of perfect spelling and grammar, this has been an interesting experience for me, and has grown increasingly worse. I choose to believe that the message is what is truly important and have really let go of the perfection of it all, so I don’t bother with an editor as well. It simply does not matter anymore and is a place I can no longer go.

This ties in as well with that old familiar memory loss when trying to have a conversation. We are moving into states where energy is all there is. Little details do not matter at this stage. It is the feeling and the energy of anything that is all that is left.

How in the world do we survive when our brains no longer function? We just do. There is a higher part of us, or our souls, who navigate through it all. We are simply losing much of our old 3D selves.

Hear, hear, on the respiratory and digestive thing. I keep wondering if I've suddenly become asthmatic. Spelling and grammar? Check. I'm trying to let go of my perfectionism, too. Very hard with an English degree and a one-time career in book publishing. I've been making errors so strange, I'm dumbfounded when I reread them. But, where the loss of 3D has really been hitting me is in my sense of time. It's gone. I feel like I'm kind of floating, and periodically I get a slap from somewhere that reminds me it's time to pay a bill or some other annoying real world concern. My connection to the temporal is constantly eroding. I'd be lost without my Google Calendar and email reminders.

But, I think I understand why Bishop is abruptly shifting her direction. We are in the midst of an incredible transition. We've passed the tipping point. We've left normal, folks, and do, indeed, live in "interesting times." And, for now, we'll have to navigate them without the frequent, calming, reassurances of Karen Bishop.

Karen Bishop's newest book Stepping Into the New Reality is now available in the bookstore.

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Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Drunvalo Melchizedek and the Flower of Life



Drunvalo Melchizedek has been in my thoughts, of late. As I said, in this diary, I have been pondering his theories on potential pole shift and other dramatic changes that may be occurring in our very near future. I have posted a YouTube player of one of Drunvalo's lectures, which gives an overview of his Flower of Life curriculum.

I studied the Flower of Life and trained, with Drunvalo, to teach the program, about 10 years ago. It was the culmination of a sort of quest that began the evening I first heard about this unusual man and his ideas. I learned about the Flower of Life by happenstance. I was doing readings for a kind of new age social club. I occasionally subbed for their regular reader. It was a last minute call, but I was free that Friday evening, and I enjoyed doing readings at their events. When I got there, things were in a little disarray. The featured speaker had abruptly canceled, leaving the organizer in a bind. He asked one of the group members to speak, off the cuff, about this "flower of life thing" he was always talking about. The man agreed. He spoke without notes or any preparation about the practice he had found so meaningful, and about this man with the funny name, who had so touched his life. I was spellbound.

I would hard pressed to explain exactly why it made such an impression. It was more emotional, more intuitive, than logical. The thing that called me most from the entire speech was this thing he called "sacred geometry." This made no sense at all. I hate math, was a terrible math student, and am, frankly, math impaired. Yet, inexplicably, when I heard this new term, it was like waking from a dream. The phrase was poetry. It meant something to me, but I had no idea why.

I was also effected by the suggestion of pole shift. I remembered Edgar Cayce's prediction of such an event, which Drunvalo's material put into a new context. And, because of my own innate connection to cetaceans, I quite enjoyed the idea that whales and dolphins were highly evolved beings, of higher consciousness than humans. That is certainly how I experience them.

Unfortunately, the speaker, who had so well conveyed Drunvalo's ideas, had no idea how or where I could take this training myself. He had a phone number for a trainer, in Brooklyn, he said, but he didn't even know if it was still in service. It wasn't.

It was well over a year later that I heard the name Drunvalo Melchizedek, again. A regular customer of the new age bookstore where I worked had just discovered the material and promised to loan me the video of a lecture and put me in touch with a Flower of Life instructor. She was good on her word. I began arrangements to sponsor the instructor in my home to teach the six day workshop. Then, in a series of bizarre synchronicities, I found myself registered to take the 3 day version of the workshop, in order to quickly go off to Mexico, and train to be an instructor, myself. It fell together as if by magic.

There is much of what Drunvalo teaches, on which I am agnostic. I can't speak to the veracity of all of his theories. I do, however, believe that he believes them. His sincerity is genuine and endearing. He is as humble and real in person as he appears in any of his lectures. I think he is strongest when he explains sacred geometry and the "flower of life" itself.

If you find yourself getting kind of "sleepy" when you listen to this material, you're not alone. In both "Flower of Life" workshops, I found myself experiencing something like narcolepsy. Several cups of coffee later, I figured out that I was simply being thrown into a low alpha brainwave, as my conscious mind became rapidly overwhelmed by something indescribably powerful. Something about this material speaks directly to my subconscious mind, connects me with past life experience, and to my own sense of "knowing." Other people have described, to me, strange sensations in their heads. Some people, of course, are capable of remaining perfectly lucid.

So, I offer up this video lecture. It's a little long, spanning 18 separate videos of roughly 10 minutes each. But, it's a nice introduction to the man and his ideas. Enjoy.

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Thursday, October 09, 2008

As the World Falls Apart

"You can't stop what's comin'. It ain't all waitin' on you. That's vanity."

-- Ellis in No Country for Old Men


I want to complete or expound upon a few thoughts, that have come up in the context of the Time Monks Oct. 7th forecast, and the current global situation as it is unfolding. Some of this is an attempt to clean up my thought process and clarify some of my previous commentary. I'll try to make it as coherent as possible.

For starters, I want to address the question of "choice," which was raised in this thread. The question also came up in the Coast to Coast interview, as discussed here. The Time Monks suggested that it was certainly possible to shift this outcome at the collective level. I agree, but I have to caveat, that at the point at which this broke wide, I thought the horses had already left the barn. It looks as if that estimation was correct, because we did, indeed, hit the tipping point on Oct. 7th.

But, this issue of choice is a very complex one, for me. Anyone who has worked with me, knows, that unlike many psychics, I don't speak in terms of fixed futures, or have attachment to the "accuracy" of predictions. On the contrary, I can actually watch futures shift during some readings, as clients grok the information presented. This is something tarot expert Rachel Pollack describes beautifully in one of her books. (I wish I could remember which one.) She posits that from the moment the cards are laid out, the future they predict has already shifted somewhat. That's because the subject of the reading now knows things they didn't before, and will inevitably take a few turns they would not have, without that information. But, another thing I've learned over years, as a reader, is that some futures are more fixed than others. Some of them are downright inevitable. We can choose, easily, to forgo a trip to the grocery store, because we gain some fore-knowledge that the traffic will be horrendous. But, it becomes far more difficult to shift some of the big life lessons that may be headed our way, even when we can see clearly, that they will be uncomfortable. There are choices that we make at a level of consciousness that operates far beyond that simple, decision-making process. This becomes even more complicated when we start talking about collective agreements, but I'll get to that in a moment.

I think the best way to clarify this is by example, and I'll use one from my own life. Years ago I interviewed for a job at Penguin Books. How to put this gently... I did not want this job. The division I would be going into had a terrible reputation. I knew people who had left there emotionally scarred. But, my headhunter wanted me to, at least, give it a shot, so I showed up for the interview. When I interviewed with my potential, direct supervisor, I adored her on sight. We just clicked. But, I still did not want the job, because I knew that her boss, and her boss's boss, and her boss's boss's boss, were all execrable. Leaving that first set of interviews, and knowing full well that I did not want to work there, I felt my energy connect to the building. I tried to deny, to myself, that it was happening. But, I could feel it. In my gut, I knew the decision had been made and I would be working there. After that, came a second interview, and a job offer. I wanted to turn it down, but neither my financial circumstances, nor my gut, would let me. I knew that, like it or not, I was supposed to work there and I knew it would be for about two years. They were two years of hell.

It was the most tense environment I had ever worked in. I was as stoical as humanly possible, but, the emotional stress was nearly intolerable. My physical health suffered. I was miserable. I kept asking spirit, can I go yet? And, the answer, over and over was, "No." If it had been up to me, on a strictly individual, ego level, I would have hit the door and never looked back, after about three months. But it wasn't until I'd been there for over a year that I understood why it was so crucial that I be there. No, it wasn't about the money. It's never that simple. After one particularly brutal day; a day in which an insanely dramatic scene between my boss and her boss played out in front of me, it began to come clear. I was witnessing a pattern that had played out in my family numerous times, when I was growing up. Forced to the surface, was some very unhealed trauma from my childhood, so that I could have the opportunity to, as they say, "trace it, face it, and erase it." There were many other levels to the healing I was able to accomplish in my time at that job, and one day, spirit said, now get the hell out of here, and I resigned.

So, a couple of things I want to underscore. Firstly, there are "choices" we make at whole other levels of consciousness; levels that, if we're lucky, we may be able to just glimpse. They are things we call into our life experience at a spiritual level, way beyond our mental conceptions. They are often things we do not "want." At the level of conscious understanding, they are often completely inscrutable.

Secondly, this is why I hate "The Secret." Okay... that came out like a verbal tick. And, let me caveat this a little. When I talk about "The Secret" and "new thought," in this context, I'm not necessarily talking about the "Science of Mind" or any other deep, thorough study of those concepts. I've never felt pulled to that modality, so I can't speak to what comprehensive study of these principles may render. I'm talking specifically about the facile approaches put forth in "The Secret" and similar poppy, "new age" ideology. I discussed this pretty thoroughly in this diary. I don't need to retread that material. I just want to clarify that some things that we want or don't want at an ego level are beyond our conscious control, and for good reason. Trying to micromanage our lives on that level, and avoiding everything that's the teensiest bit uncomfortable, is a) impossible, and b) would stunt our growth, if we could really control it. It is also not nearly as simple as controlling your "thoughts." Thoughts are really one small, ego-identified part of our greater consciousness. And, they're not the part of us that we should really want calling the shots for our lives.

The reason I am impressed by the method the Time Monks have devised, is that they appear to be looking at that unconscious level, beyond simple ego-identity. They're also looking at what is resulting from our collective agreements. Collective agreements are pretty well invisible to the naked eye, but nothing occurs in this world that we don't agree to at a collective level. What this means, in real terms, is that we all agreed to experience the horror of 9/11, to be governed by an unelected President, to the devastation of Katrina, etc., etc., etc. Whatever our conscious thoughts about those things, however much we may not want them, they served the greater purpose of moving the whole forward in a very necessary spiritual growth process.

So it is with our current fiscal collapse. At least, as per Karen Bishop in her August 16 posting of last year. While she allowed that it could change, if we collectively made that choice, she also said:

The fall is necessary. If we were to try and “save” these areas of lower vibrating reality, we would only be hindering the process and necessary stage of the fall. So then, this is why the US is readying for its great fall. It is necessary. In a strange way, this is a great and wonderful thing. All is in divine and perfect order.

And so, here we are. Some of it may have shifted in subtle ways, since she made that prediction, but the broad strokes are clearly playing out. There is a higher purpose to what is occurring and we have considered it at the collective level, for some time, and sourced this reality. The Time Monks say this eventuality had been coming up in their data for some years. And they talk about how, in making their forecasts, they lose "granularity" at about 19 months. This makes perfect sense to me, because there is so much fluctuation in all futures, including our shared, collective ones.

Bishop also advises lightworkers to remove themselves from the chaos and stay "in the light," so to speak. I'm of mixed mind on this. I tend to think she's right about a lot of us being sheltered and protected, so that we can do what we came here to do. I also think it's very easy to read that text, fall into polarized thinking, and go into total denial. I addressed some of this in the comments on this thread, where I said the following:

I'm not a big fan of blocking things out. This is the problem I have whenever I hear people saying, "Don't buy into the fear. Turn off the television." I have to ask, if seeing what is objectively occurring makes you want to run from it, aren't you being totally controlled by fear? I'm not a Buddhist, but I know this much about Buddhism. It's not really about shutting emotions off, although, it seems a lot of Buddhists try to do it this way. It's about moving past emotion, detaching completely from happy and sad and moving into a place of serenity. This is what enlightenment means -- in Buddhism, in Hindu, in many other contexts -- that we wake up in the dream and realize that it's all illusion. All of it. Not just the parts we don't like.

I don't think we need to buy into the drama and panic, but I don't know if it serves us when we talk about avoiding all the "negativity," which is just one example of what I've been reading around the web. Our concept of negativity is subjective. I don't think the events that are playing out on the world stage are "negative," per say. As discussed, they are actually the means by which our collective growth and healing are playing out. But, we will need to protect ourselves from the toxicity that is no longer appropriate to our process. We will need to "detach with love" from a good deal of this.

I think it's somewhat analogous to a recovering member of a very dysfunctional family. To quote Stuart Smalley on visiting his family, "Next time, I'll stay in a hotel." We will absolutely need to create our own space and buffer zones against the insanity. Hell. I've been doing that for years. But we also can't pretend that what is unfolding is entirely separate from us. If we are seeing it. If it is manifesting in our reflective reality at all, it does exist to, at least, some small degree within us. Else, we would not feel triggered by it. And, it is important to both our individual healing, as well as that of the whole, that we continue to address those issues as they arise within us.

I say all this knowing full well how glib it sounds, even now. What unfolds may be horrific, and the more surreal it becomes, the more I may want to retreat to a cave at the top of a very high mountain, where my family and I will live on nuts and berries. Don't laugh. Could happen. And my husband has done the course work to make that possible.

I can't say, now, how all this will play out. I've had glimpses of a future so magical, I have no idea how to put it into words. And, as they say, we shall see...

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Friday, August 15, 2008

Perspectives on Energy Storms

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In Karen Bishop's last update, "The Continuing Energies of August -- In the Eye of the Storm," we got an indication that things would get a little jagged.

But now enter the energies of August. Although a rocky road remains behind us, there will be much more smooth sailing ahead for us, if only for awhile. And know as well that in the months to come there will be immense shake-ups, much turmoil, and great change. During this time and the times to come, know that the more we remain out of the mainstream, or stay clear of what is falling, the less affected we will be. The key is to stay in our sacred spaces and provide our services from there.

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On August 16th, we will experience a lunar eclipse and full moon. During this time, we will have the opportunity to experience and examine our shadow selves, what is inside of us, what our fears are, and we may feel and emptiness and rather spooky energy. It may feel that the light is temporarily gone and that we are only connected to a strange and dark space. We may not want to be alone then, and thus crave the companionship and connections to others.

I always find it ironic that whenever she writes most cheerfully of positive expansion, I feel like the cure is worse than the disease. Perhaps, I haven't mastered the whole staying clear of falling objects thing. I find this process awfully uncomfortable. (Think childbirth.) This month is incredibly intense. I don't know about you, but I'm in energetic overwhelm. My head feels all swimmy and I can't seem to get my thoughts clear. I also don't think I've ever hated the physical, 3d world, more.

Along those lines, I found a little more insight into the current "storm" from Amethyst Wildfyre.

So how do these energy storms come about? Just like with the weather - when a high and a low come together boom there’s the thunder, the lightning, the wind and rain! Energetically we have arrived at a gateway or portal where enormous amounts of highly vibrating energy is pouring into, around, over and through our planetary matrix. This high vibrational energy bumping up against the lower vibrational energies is combining to create the storm energy and it’s really shaking some things up for everyone.

If you’ve been feeling extremely sensitive lately this is not unusual, again just like you can smell, taste or feel it in the air right before a big thunderstorm, the same thing is happening with this energy storm. Of course what is also happening is a lot of old, dead, stuck, heavy energy is being vibrated by the high energy influx. As this happens we tend to experience a lot of chaotic shifts. The work is to remain grounded, centered, balanced and clear. To be the EYE of the storm so to speak. This is the place of pure power, direction, and focus.

You may notice that all around you there are people who are moving through all kinds of emotion stuff right now. This particular energy storm is heavily focused on the emotional clearing of the light bodies. Old patterns that you thought had been cleared are now up for review and for a thorough cleansing of any residual particles in the electromagnetic field that are disharmonious.

Some of the physical ramifications for those that are deep in the throes of the cleansing might be experiencing some weight gain, water retention, crying for “no” reason, sudden shifts in the emotions from calm one minute to highly charged the next. There is also alot of shifting happening in relationships, business circumstances, careers and finances. How these storms are navigated is entirely up to you!

Yes. Yes to all of the above.

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Wednesday, March 05, 2008

A Meditation on Suffering

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In the most recent Energy Alert from Karen Bishop, "Surviving the Storm" -- Feb. 23, 2008, she invokes the issue of suffering. Like most of her alerts, the issue felt very timely. I know I'm feeling depleted, exhausted, frustrated, and beset by a sadness and anger that, like so many of the collective experiences that Bishop explains so well, has no nameable source. In the alert she gives her explanation of the higher purpose of suffering.

Suffering is occurring to support individuals into making a change. When we are extremely miserable, we are more inclined to be open to doing things differently, or perhaps inclined to let go of internal patterns that have continued to cause us misery for a very long time. And as most of us know, we are the ones who cause ourselves misery, and in this way, we are then empowered to make change, as changing ourselves is what creates the change on the outside as well, and then the ball is in our own court.

It can be difficult and very challenging to watch all this suffering around us. Our hearts go out to those involved. We deeply care. It can at times seem as though the world has gone mad. But we must also remember that each and every one of us is on our own unique journey, and our journeys are what create the needed changes.


In one of those delightful, little synchronicities of which life is so full, I stumbled on some very useful material, while assembling YouTube videos for my bookstore players. In these segments Pema Chodron explains the practice of tonglen; the use of suffering as a means to awakening.



In this video, from an appearance at The Omega Institute, Chodron offers a tonglen meditation on suffering in a time of war.

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